I need to cheer up!

Okay I was going to do todays fun Monday but I think I am going to forgo this week. I have to much on my mind serious stuff you know I just can't get into it.

Izzak is away at outdoor school. A week away with the other 6th graders in the school. I am hoping he enjoys it but I know right now they are being dowsed in rain. Also this is the school and students he has had so many problems with this year and it just leaves me a little paranoid. I am worried about getting a call because he gets hurt or has an anxiety attack and being so far away from home may make it harder on him. He has new medicine to take for when one comes on but I didn't feel comfortable sending it with him as it can really knock him out and he doesn't really need that!

Also, I had my annual physical appointment last Friday. You know girls the one we all look so forward to every year :(! Anyway everything wasn't perfect. The dr didn't like the size of my uterus he said its more then twice the size it should be and sent me in for an ultrasound today. It freaks me out because my dads mom died of uterine cancer when she was in her late 30's. Thats just one of the things that freaks me out. My dad was an orphan when he was Izzaks age and I hate the thought that he could ever lose even one of his parents. Or the other kids as well. I had the ultrasound though and they took a lot of measurements of things. I can't read those things though and the person doing the ultrasound can't say anything so now I am just waiting for a call when its read to tell me if I have anything to worry about. Really it just scares me and honestly I don't need anything else wrong with me right now.....

Not to mention our plans for moving to Alaska obviously something like that would really throw that one off and that is one of those things that is getting me through the work days right now is thinking that we will move soon and I won't have to go to that job.